I'm in a dry spell.
In life. In my walk with God. Just in general.
I know that we are all bound to go through times like this from time to time. But when i don't feel as connected to God as i am used to i turn into...well...a jerk.
I know that when i have a hard time understanding God's love for me it is extremely hard for me to love other people. And i snap at friends...and i have a hard time with compassion...and i get angered easily.
The amazing thing about Him is that even when i don't feel worthy to be in His presence...when i run out of patience with His children and don't even come close to treating them the way that He calls us to...when it's easier for me to crawl into bed in the middle of the afternoon and take a nap then to spend some time with my Maker...despite all of this He still tries to show me daily His love for me. I don't deserve that kind of love. But still He lavishes me with it.
So He is still speaking to me...and I to Him...
But something is still amiss.
I know that it is in these times that He shows Himself most...I just need to hang onto that truth.
Until then, this will be my prayer..."Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days"-Psalm 90:14
2 comments:
Oh becca.. i'm praying for you right now.. and i want to encourage you because i get like this a lot when i forget to look around for the enemy's attack on my joy.. i start dwelling on the errors i'm making in not showing other people grace... and i keep records of my own wrongs.. and i begin to feel like the worst christian in the world... and i think the thing i get the most frustrated with about myself when i'm in a dry spell is not so much my actions towards others.. but my attitude.. because i might still be doing the right things.. but i've "lost heart".. so to speak.. becca it's obvious to other people that the Lord's hand is on your life.. and even in this dry spell you are still such a beautiful example of faith.. as someone who reaches out no matter what the circumstance.. so until the morning comes.. stop being so hard on yourself.. you are radiant.
hello beautiful roomie. i understand this post and the feelings that come along with it to a fault, unfortunately. all i know is that the becca i know, is a dreamer... and drinks life in... and invites others to join her in this endeavor. you make life into an adventure, something that is full of fun and excitement and overflowing with love. i hate that you are feeling a dry spell, but i know that God will woo you and you will return to that girl whose 'cup overflowith' , or runneth over or whatever *wink* (just like bernice) i love you and i just encourage you to get your hands on the things that make your heart beat. go back to those books on intercession and pray before you read them that God will re-ignite a flame and passion for those things. i know it never left.... but hey, i know that your heart loves interceeding and i've seen that spark in your eye when the Lord speaks to you through a desire to call out to Him for His children. i love you for that. and you know i'm here to pray WHENEVER. seriously. love you my friend. very much.
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