I Hate Critters

Last night should have been a great night.  It started off with some incredible prayer time with some seriously great friends...then led into a great time celebrating a great friends birthday with so many other people that i love and with some incredible food.  

it was sunday night, and i don't work right now, and you may not know this about me...but that usually means midnight star gazing trip. so we loaded up the car with plenty of hoodies and good music and headed off into the night.  petit jean mountain is not too long of a drive from my house, and there is this incredible spot away from the lights where the stars come alive.  and the best part is the drive to this spot...i'm talking the trees have never looked so magical as they do in this spot at 1 am.    

here's a little snippet of the gloriousness that was our view last night. 

Now, you should know...this does not constitute a star gazing experience for you.  I've pondered it and pondered it and i cannot figure out why this is...but there is something about lying under a blanket of stars that actually moves me inside. I can feel things shift, I feel closer to God, and i feel like he speaks more clearly when you are in awe of His beauty.  This cannot be translated through a photo...there is nothing like it.  But it is true nonetheless.  

Several shooting stars and two entire sigur ros albums later we were headed home.  Callie was playing a magical little list of songs from my ipod and Lydia had dozed off in the back seat when the night took an ominous turn.  Cruising down the highway at a smooth 60 mph we were admiring the clouds that seemed to sit just right above the ground and the gorgeous haze that was covering the arkansas river.   when out of nowhere came the bane of my existence.

Except he was bigger.  A lot bigger.  And I may receive a LOT of hate for saying this, but i hope that he was actually a she.  Because i hope that her enormousness was due to the fact that she was pregnant and i killed her and all of her babies.  Because that girlfriend definitely put 3 huge holes right in the front of my car.  

The impact was loud of enough to wake Lydia from her slumber, but after immediate inspection (by sound only. we were on a dark country road at 2 am after all. i say no to creepy experiences) we assumed all was fine and we would check my car out for gross blood splatters when we got home.  WELL, we forgot to look...and i completely forgot about that stupid raccoon. (except for not subconsciously, because i had an extremely weird dream that i think stemmed from her giant butt.  i may post about that later...but maybe not. we'll see).  Lydia and I remembered on the way to the Brewery because my car seemed to be making a weird noise, like the wind was actually going THROUGH my car.  So when we got out we checked out the damage expecting MAYBE a small dent.  Yeah, like you know already, 3 holes.  Which sucks, but i could deal with.  Since i'm not working i figured i'd just have to wait to pay for it to be fixed.

Until i was driving home from the Brewery.  And i hit a normal everyday bump in the road.  

And the front of my car fell off.

That freaking raccoon is wreaking havoc on my life even from the after life.  

Just like a raccoon.

So i can't drive my car right now.  And i'm  having to believe God for either a) my car to heal itself overnight.  or b) a free way to fix my tattered front end.  It's amazing to me that it's so easy for me to believe for God to do huge enormous things for other people, but i have such a hard time believing for something much smaller for myself.  So i covet your prayers right now...and for people to believe God to provide in a way that i'm having trouble doing myself.  When i think about it, it seems like such a small deal...something that should not provide me loads of stress or thought.  but i AM jobless, and poor right now...and it seems that's the time when things like this happen.  It takes a lot to put me in a downtrodden mood, but that's exactly where i've existed for the second half of my day.  

I'm asking God for brighter skies tomorrow.

Thanks friends.